November Portfolio

World Of Magic
  
        A seemingly joyful girl is skipping home smiling from ear to ear. She gets to her house takes a deep breath and opens the door calmly, and no later dashes up the stairs to her room. She then slams the door behind her. There she stays, enclosed underneath her covers, pondering on who really knows her. Her friends sure are clueless, they see her innocent smile and are immediately fooled. They have never really looked into her eyes. Soon she drifts off into her 'world of magic'. What she doesn't realize, is sometimes fantasies can hurt more then they seem to help; that's what the lyrics of 'Brick By Boring Brick' by Paramore is all about if you listen closely.
        Sadly, many teenagers suffer from depression; with depression, comes many other problems forcing teens to manage with their life or not have life at all. To cope, some have to "live in a fairy tale" and just forget "the taste and smell of the world" that they left behind.  These  lyrics in the song are very powerful. Everyone wants to be jubilant, but not everyone can be, so some may make up separate worlds to escape from reality. They live in this world of happiness, to free themselves from their world of despair, pain and tragedy. But when you are inside of this "world of magic" you can dream, but don’t let it carry you away because it will make you float away, never come back and it will hurt you. "Well go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole" so they can burry this world. If you aren't exposed to the real world, you will never be happy. The truth is. the fantasies that she thought was helping her, really aren't. "It is all about the exposure of the lens". This line is key. Life is all about the outlook. This states that if you should try to tell you that if you look at life more optimistically, life won't be so bad.
         "Make sure to build your house brick by boring brick, or the wolf's going to blow it down". This sums up the central message that if you live your life by logic and reality, you're not as likely to get hurt. Paramore states that you shouldn't let your fantasies carry you away, your life may be boring, but it will be sturdy.
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Things Happen For A Reason

A cold November night
The air is frigid
And frosty is chilling her toes to the bone
The wind slides past her face
Numbing her ears and nose
She sits on the table
Waiting for their return
The seconds turn to minutes
And the minutes feel like hours
With misery storming through her mind
The flashbacks start
Her heart goes numb
And she is deprived of all hope
The dream of what they could have been
She drags herself home
With only the dim light
From the flickering street lights
She looks up to the stars
Hoping to find some sort of relief
A shooting star, something
But as her eyes gaze up higher and higher
The only thing she sees is clouds
She thinks to herself
"don’t cry now"
Step by step she inches closer to warmth
This is the longest walk she has ever taken
Although in reality
She was only a block away
Only a few more steps
Until she can be safe at last
She stumbles onto the door  step
Takes a deep breath
And reaches for the door
Her finger tips touch the cold metal door knob
She takes a step inside and collapses on the ground
Curled up into a ball of comfort
She feels safe physically
But mentally, she's a mess
Tears cascade down her face
How could she fall for him?!
She is disgusted with herself
The pain pierces a hole through her chest
And her heart shatters
They say follow your heart
But when it is in so many pieces
Which way are you to go?
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The Backstabbing Mortal
She will never die
She sabotages hopes and dreams
And is highly volatile

She has a plastic face
With a fake smile plastered on it
She will be smug as she lies to your face

She continues digging her self deeper
Deeper into the dirt
She will need a larger shovel dig herself out this time

If you are moronic enough to trust her
She will obliterate you completely
With her nefarious heart

She looks like an angel
With her sandy hair and halo to match
But its time for her to take of the crown of light

And show you the devil that lurks underneath
This seemingly beautiful girl
Explodes into the demon

You don’t want to get absorbed into her black heart
Stay as far away as you can
Because she will turn you cold

As cold, dark and dusty as her non-existent soul
You will stay there for eternity
And there is no way out

So stay away
Stay far away because she is like a magnet
Pulling people close

And never letting go
It's why she was designed
To trust, crush, kill and destroy.
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